the blog hopper

i was blog hopping.. Lynette's bloggie entry came as a shock to me. a very near-to-perfect couple decided to become frens. they appeared as a role model to me. a couple hu does hav quarrels but always solve it amicably and u noe the "live happily ever after" sweet sweet couple kinda thing. and wen i read her blog, i felt a lot of emotions myself, as well as for her. her words said so much bout her heart, said so much bout her feelings. and as i read it, i dunno to be happy for her :/ after all, she was de one hu made de decision. and no..they din had a huge fight or whatsoever.. apparently, she's going overseas :(

its been going 3 yrs since i knew her :) she was de one hu intro-ed me the Mediacorp job =) she was also the one hu taught me "dun find love, let love find u".. and.. funnily, we've not met at all! lol. i hope wadever route u choose, success n happiness will be wif u, Lynette :)

den i read Qiwen's blog, and saw photos of her bro - ya him. memories of the past came into me. and fear sets in. no one expected him to be such a person, or at least, i din expect him to do such things. i feel sad and hurt tinkin bout the nasty things he did, bout the sweet little talks he always sae, jus to cover up his lies and actions he did behind my back. i feel de phobia coming back to me.

i hate myself for not bein able to control how i feel. wen such phobia sets in, my boy doesnt like it. ok who in the right mind will like it.. but ah im aldy tryin not to let de past affect me. sigh :/

oh well, not all r/s will turn out bad hur? *self-console* on a happier note, my cousin's gettin married tmr! hehe, so happy for her. .her big big day wor! =) i hav so many cousins gettin married tis month and even nex yr! *smiles* on leave tmr, goin to be the bridesmaid, hehe, so long wkend for me! :) de other time while havin dinner @ Sakae, my boy and i were tokin bout "sabo-ing the bridegroom!". so i asked him, nex time if one of the challenge is to eat lotsa wasabi, den how? u will eat a not? guess wad that silly boy said?

"heh. i wun eat! cos i noe in the end u'll still marry me!" wad the.. -.-"

(my aunt jus msg me to ask wad kind of challenge is good for the bridegroom tmr. so i told her: "make him eat sth he hate!" die la, they are preparing wasabi salad for him now! omg, not my fault ok! hehe)

ever since he wen overseas, every call from him was so precious to me..

her: thanks for callin dear, great to hear ur voice :)
him: my love, its great to hear your voice too.. makes me miss u so much.. makes me reflect and know i wanna marry u.. oh baby, im dreamin of my baby in her wedding dress, with me waiting to unveil and kiss u! love u sugar..

(lol he's been day dreaming too much! lol.. i hope he doesnt miss me only wen we dun see each other for so long..)

my boy is out in the greens :/ haven heard fr him since Tues.. *sob* before he wen outfield, he choose not to bathe so he has time to call me, hehe.

him: baobei, call you before i leave..
her: orh, u free now ah?
him: no la. the rest bathing.. i nvr bathe to cor u lor.. hehe aint i good?
her: *smiles* really ah? hehe.
him: but 4 yrs later i wun cor u le leh..
her: huh.. how come..?
him: hehe cos we'll b married in 4 yrs time! you'll be living wif me le ma!
her: muahah...you ah.. so fast meh? u say one ah!
him: hehe i try lor..

see la, his mouth so sweet rite! lol. hopefully he wun be like the previous one.. sweet talk jus to cover his lies and actions :/

u mite not read tis, but i miss you baby. another 8 more days to go.. *cries* i told you i'll wait for you, and i really really mean it.

there's so many things that can mean so much more than i can tell,
baby, i remember the day i knew you and the day i fell for you.
if there was ever one thing in my life i was certain of,
it would be you - the man i truly love, i love you baby.